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Man, Im tired. I have to go to a funeral tomorrow and I have nothing to wear. Great. I do not want to go but it is only appropriate.Jason is online and isnt saying anything to me. I havnt talked to him in two weeks. Obviously he doesnt care. Whatever.Do you ever have those days where no matter how much you eat you are still hungry? Thats how ive been feeling all day. I think it was the chinese food I ate for lunch.No matter how much chinese food I eat i am always hungry after. It is almost 12 at night and I am starving with nothing to eat in my house. Great.I think Im going to bed now.

It's gettin cold in here

I just got done washing my car and it was not a good idea. It was so freezing I thought my hands were gonna freeze up the second I put them in the water. I had to wash it though. My car was filthy and I could not drive around with it lookin like that. I hate black cars man. They get dirty so fast. I think the next car Im gonna get is gonna be white. They are easier to keep clean.I gotta go to work soon. Im really not in the mood to deal with it again but I guess I gotta make mah money somehow. I think Im gonna go to Barnes & Noble right now before I go to work and look at some books and get some Starbucks. Oohhhh a Toffe nut Latte sounds good. Off I go.

I saw Chingy last night!! I luh him.

Wow, I had such a good night last night. I did'nt think I was gonna end up doing anything but I guess I got lucky. At around 4 my sister calls me from the Black College Expo at the L.A. Convention center. I wanted to go so bad but I had to babysit. Anyway she tells me that they are selling tickets there for the concert at the sports arena for Ja Rule, Ashanti, Xzibit and Ludacris for like 15 dollas. Some guy was selling them and I wasnt sure If i wanted to go or not so I called up my friend to see if she wanted to go. We were debating about it forever becuz we are both some broke ass people right now but we havn't did anything fun for a long time. We contemplated forever and finally we call my sister to tell her to get them for us and right when she got to the place where the guy was she finds out he left 10 minutes earlier. We were pissed cuz we were all pumped up to go and shit. We decided that we didnt care how broke we were, we were gonna do somthing fun that night. We call up my friend Anika to see what she's doin and she tells us that her and her boyfriend are going to these Monster truck races in Anaheim and she has two free tickets. Me and Liz were like hell yeah we'll go especially since its free. So we get ready and head out. Anika was supposed to call us to confirm that everthing was coo with the tickets but she never did so I decided to call her. Come to find out she had told someone else about the races and they decided to go and bring a friend so she doesnt have any free tickets left.Me and Liz were pissed at that point cuz we were already on our way and she didnt even call us to tell us she didnt have the tix anymore. Anyways we were like damn we should just go to L.A. and see if we can get tickets to the concert. We figured we were almost there anyway so we might as well try. Our initial plan was to get them from scalpers cuz they would cheaper and we figured it would be easy cuz the show was supposed to start at 7 and it was already 8. Well we get there and theres cops everywhere so we were like hell naw, we are not tryna get arrested buying tickets from a scalper. So we just went up to box office and asked how much the cheapest tickets were and the lady said 25. We were like dang thats hella cheap and she said that we could prolly sneak down easily too so we were excited.We finally got in the venue and the show didnt start until around 9 sumthin. We snuck down to the very first row of the upper level which were pretty good seats so we were happy. Ashanti came on first and suprisingly she sang really well live. Ive always liked some of her songs but I never thought she had like an amazing voice or anything but she did really well.Next Ja Rule came on and I do not really care for Ja Rule but he was really good to the audience and when his microphone stopped working he went out in the middle of the audience and started rappin. I thought that was tight cuz he knew people were pissed off cuz they couldnt hear him so he compensated by actually going out into the crowd. It was nuts.Xzibit was prolly the tightest of the night. He is one of my favorite west coast rappers for real and he put it down. His flow is tight and he represented so I was feelin him. I love Xzibit. He was on for a good while too. Prolly longer than Ashanti and Ja Rules set put together. I wasnt complainin.Last was Ludacris. Ive been wanting to se Luda in concert forever. He just seemed like he had so much perosnality and I knew he would be good on stage. I was right. Luda was off the hook. He is so tight. When he first came out he was rappin so fast I thought I was listening to Twista or sumthin, it was crazy. He sang alot of his hits and some unrealeased songs.Now the most exciting part of the show for me was when Luda came out and said that he had a special guest. He's all I wanna bring out one of the newest members of DTP. Yall prolly know him real well. All of a sudden Chingy comes out from under the curtains and Holiday Inn starts. Now yall dont understand. I seriously get so teenyish over Chingy and I dont know why. I never really had a crush on a rapper but for some reason I think Chingy is the cutest ever. He seems so sweet lol I prolly sound retarded sayin that but I dont care. Ever since I saw Making the Video with him and he was talkin bout how much he liked Keisha Pulliam I was hooked. He seemed so shy around her and he actually seemed nervous to meet her and I thought it was so cute.Sue me.After Chingy came on another suprise guest was there. It ended up Being Lil Jon lol. He is one crazy ass mofo. It was so fun though cuz him and Luda did Get Low and Salt shaker by the Ying Yang twins, and Damn by the Youngbloodz.It was so much fun. I was dancin the whole time.I have to say it worth the 25 dollars that I didnt have. I had a real good time :D

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just seein if this works

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I just got outta Biology Lab and it was boring as usual. The only thing thats good about is that there is this cute guy named Derrick that sits at my table. He has the most gorgeus eyes ever for real so thats cool. So I started my diet again yesterday. I went on the South Beach diet in August. It was the first diet that I ever tried and actually succeeded at. I was on it from August to about the end of November because the holidays and diets just do not go together. During that time I lost like 20 pounds so It actually does work you just gotta stay motivated for it. After that it all went downhill. I started eating like I did before I started without even thinking and the next thing I know I gained back 10 pounds that I lost. Ive been meaning to start it but there was that little loss of motivation factor that got in the way.I finally decided to get back on track because I wanna look good for the summer time, yeah!!! I did really good yesterday and didny cheat at all. Today is different though. I was so hungry when I got home from school and I all I had to eat was tuna which is good but It wasnt enough so i added some Wheat Thins to the mix.Damn them addicting carbs!!! I gotta get on track.Im hungry again.Maybe ill go Carls Jr. and get that new Six Dollar Low Carb burger. It looks good.What is it about diets that make you wanna eat so much more than you did before you went on the damn thing.Fuck man.

You think you know but you have no idea ,bwa ha ha!!

My eyes hurt. I think Im tired but im not really sure. I had fun reading alot of other peoples journals tonight. I have to say there are some pretty cool and interesting people out there. When I read everyone elses im like damn my life is boring lol. But whatever. I cant help that at this moment. Maybe its just boring to me, i dunno. Right now I feel like my life is at a stand still. Like im not really going anywhere, just staying in the same place not doing anything.I have no motivation whatsoever. Maybe I can buy some motivation. Maybe Costco sells it. I can buy it in bulk so i'll never run out again. Maybe i need to hang out with some new people or maybe listen to some new music or something. Any suggestions? Im open to anything. If anyone reads this, leave me some comments once in a while, it'll feel good to know at least some people read this shit lol

ME

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Lol, man im watching the Surreal Life right now. Whoever decided to put Vanilla Ice, Ron Jeremy, Eric Estrada, Tracy Bingham and whoever else is on this show together to work at Mels Diner is crazy. And then they put Gary Colemen on there as the manager. They're doin the most. I dont know about anyone else but I would not want Ron Jeremy anywhere near my food. Do you know where his hands have been? Thats disgusting. I would not go there to eat, id prolly end up with giz on my grilled cheese sandwich or somthing. Shame shame shame.

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Lol, man im watching the Surreal Life right now. Whoever decided to put Vanilla Ice, Ron Jeremy, Eric Estrada, Tracy Bingham and whoever else is on this show together to work at Mels Diner is crazy. And then they put Gary Colemen on there as the manager. They're doin the most. I dont know about anyone else but I would not want Ron Jeremy anywhere near my food. Do you know where his hands have been? Thats disgusting. I would not go there to eat, id prolly end up with giz on my grilled cheese sandwich or somthing. Shame shame shame.

Ehhh, I feel l...

Ehhh, I feel like shit. I am so sick right now. It seems like ive been sick off and on so much lately. I have a stuffy ass nose and my sinuses are killing me.I had a pretty fun day though even though it ended pretty bad. Me and my friend Liz went up to this place called Dove Springs to go dirt bike riding and 4-wheeling with her parents friends. We each got to ride the four wheelers and they decided to take liz to this one place with alot of hills and stuff called the Bowl. Now this was Lizs first time riding a quad ever. Well she decides shes gonna go up this really steep hill but as soon as she got to the top she let go of the gas and started rolling down backwords. Nobody could get to her in time and she started rolling over while on the quad. She rolled over like 5 times. She had to get taken to the hospital in the ambulance.Luckily she did not break anything and is fine. She just have a few abrasions and stuff. She is very lucky cuz she could have broken her neck because her helmet fell of. I was so worried about her but luckily she was alright. We came home after that and now I am here. It was very hectic today but she said she still had a good time even though all that happened.San Diego Jason called me tonight. He calls me like every Saturday and ask me where the parties are at. Im like dude, im not the freakin party coordinator. Most of the time i dont even know where partys are at. I just hear it through the grapevine. He calls me the party girl and thinks I party all the time but seriously I really dont. I go to more clubs than parties.I talked to Indiana Jason tonight too. Hes been acting really weird and its really getting on my nerves. Last night I called him cuz I was in a really bad mood and I wanted to talk to someone. He sounded all rude and said very rudely that he was watchin and movie and hell call me back some other time. I would have not minded if he woulda said it like he had some sense but he said it all evil and it made me oh so mad. He called me earlier while I was on my way to the hospital and apoligized for being so short with me last and he said that all his family came over unexpectantly and took over his house and made him watch the movie and thats why he sounded so irritated. I was like oh thats fine and I understand yada yada yada. I thought it was cool that he apoligized but then I called him not too long ago and he was being all short with me again. I was like fuck that man he is doing the most. There is no need for you to be gettin all attitudish with me. I personally think that when I called him his "friend" Tierra was with him and thats why he was being retarded. In my opinion she sounds like a big whore who treats Jason like shit and has him whipped but I really dont even know her. Im just going off what he tells. Whatever though, I do know that when he calls me again which I know he will ima tell him how hes acting cuz its really not coo.